HMA was ending. I had two days before I would finally fly back to Romania. I was on one last errand to my sister’s and back home. It would be a total of 50 minutes. How would I pass this time in the car?
Christian talk radio blared as I started the car. I heard the introduction of a sermon and realized it was a pastor whose preaching irritated me. I switched off the radio.
I thought, “Wait. Don’t get all judgmental and critical Karen. God can speak through anyone as long as His Word is involved.” I turned the radio back on.
The irritating voice was talking about God telling Moses who he was. Stop.
In the silence that followed, I asked God, “Who am I? Who do You say that I am?”
Into my mind came the song by Chris Tomlin, Good, Good Father.
“You’re a good, good Father. It’s who you are, who you are, who you are. And I’m loved by you. It’s who I am, who I am, Who I am.”
Ah, God is my Father. I am His daughter. I am loved by Him.
So quickly I forget that I am not what I do. What I do comes from who I am.
I continued in conversation with my good, good Father. “Am I on the right path? Am I going in the direction You want me to go? Unless you go with me, I won’t continue forward.”
Great peace surrounded me. Then I heard, in my spirit, “Yes, but remember to keep your horizons broad.”
I nodded. Yes, I needed that reminder. My vision can get rather narrow. Then I remembered the results of a discernment group from six months ago. God was repeating himself.
What a blessing to have this confirmation of call/direction just before I returned to the field!
Prayer is conversation with God – sometimes more formal and lofty – but always conversation with God.
Prayer is blessed conversation with God.